Day 40: A Better Me
I’m a very positive person. I like to see the good in every situation and I try my best to spread positivity. With all that positive throughts flowing through my brain, it’s crazy how self-conscious I’ve become. I remember a few years ago I felt amazing in my own skin. And now, not even close. I know that it’s all in my head. I know that I can change my thoughts. I’m not happy with myself.
I’ve never really one to care about my weight or what I’m eating - I’ve had a very fast metabolism all my life. I’m not super thin, I have some curves but overall I’m pretty tall and it balances out. I’ve had a few people call me skinny and I honestly don’t see it. I barely squeeze into the pants that I have. My perception of myself is way harsher than reality.
I think that the main thing is that I don’t feel healthy. I don’t feel good. I wake up and I don’t feel like getting up. Does anyone else feel that? Is it just the cold weather outside? I’m really not sure.
One thing I know is that I don’t want to feel this way. I need to start doing something - I need to be moving around. I can start with home workouts and then move on to classes again. I want to feel beautiful inside. I don’t feel beautiful inside right now.